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Friday, March 11, 2005

9:53 PM

ive got a massive crush on you... but its only a crush..

i've had a very very very BAD day... -_-

my wallet got stolen. [600 Php]

my ragnarok account got hacked. [ still have a few cool/nice/useful items thoguh]

and i think im going to quit guitar. yeah. i think. i might. i dont know... ive lost motivation or something, basta. ayoko na. its just going to be a hobby. [my WHOLE FAMILY PLAYS THE FREAKIN GUITAR. SO, ILL PLAY MAYBE ONCE in 2 MONTHs. its not that important anymore. im thinking of storing the the nylon, the steel, the bass[e-guitar], and DA ibanez e-guitar permanently. haha. :p

im just going to be swimming, jogging, biking[pasig to antipolo and vice versa. i might.], work-out, or, go to bicol. im not going to the alps. im not in the mood. i like it here better... stupid right?! :D

ANYWAY...
my sister, as anyone who knows her is that she's OK at guitar.[old songs; dust in the wind, song for annie, err, leader of the band. ung mga tinuro ko sa kanya.. haha. ill teach her better songs. tapos mag-gguitar lessons na cya. yeah.]

MY COUSINS FROM CA ARE coming thing may! well, last week of may or first week of june. pasalubong!!! haha! joke lang.. advance welcome.. [pshaw.] ^_^

im trying a new look. yup. as pathetic as it may sound. wala lang.. ethnic tribal stuff trip ko ngaun... necklaces[pang-GUY!], bracelets, "cuffs", anklets.. the like.. namimigay rin ako. i bought a LOT at megatrade hall. haha... pero bibigyan ko lang ata ung mga cuzins ko..

DID you know?! ung -GUAPO[hahahahahahaha! joke lang pare!] at adik sa DotA- kong classmate na c king, parang "2nd cousin in law ko pala. kakagulat diba? nalaman lang namin recently. ang tita nya, inasawa tito ko.. laboooooooooooooooooooo........ #_#

ei arbie.. do you want my electric guitar? tell me. i might give it to you! harhar.. har... no really. i MYT.

here's the song of the day. or the song ive been singing.. ewan. bastah e2 ung lyricsh!!! [sh?!!?]

-MASSIVE CRUSH-
the Barbs

I bought the manga & stole the guitars
He put the speakers in the back of my car
She killed her parents I left mine a note
I crossed my fingers, we drove to the coast

She's got her make-up, she puts her face on
And now we're getting quite a reputation
Good conversation, good conversation
Full of interesting observation

I've got a massive crush on you
And there's no limit to what I'll let you do
And when you speak to me well what can I say
With every whisper you blow me away

I like driving, I like to go fast
I like to see how many cars I can pass
I had a vision we'd never arrive
The whole journey in fear of his life

I've got a massive crush on you
And there's no limit to what I'll let you do
And the you beckon me & what can I say
With every gesture you lead me astray

I've got a massive crush on you
And there's no limit to what I'll let you do
You drag me everywhere you take me away
With all the little stupid things that you say, you say
I've got a massive crush on you
I've got a massive crush on you It may be massive
but it don't mean much
After all, it's only a crush..

ewan. im a small fan of the barbs.. i like a few songs...

basta. ewan. YM uli... queenie.. sorry tlgang di kta mtawagan. landline nalang kaya! QC k db? :p

i gave away my ragna account. haha. and i might give away my guitars. they've got no significant meaning anyWAYZ.. ;p oonga pla! cheskie, bili ako ng tickets para sa MCHS freshie night!!! 300 Php lang db?! and maybe ill treat some real friends out in starbux. ubusin ko na pera ko. ive never really used it on myself. yeah. i mean how important am i anyway? maybe this summer ill stop eating breakfast and lunch. call it my sacrifice. or my "artifice, my mask, my concealment, my pretense."... whatever. i dont know anymore. i dont know what to like, what to do, what to think...

hmm// so how should i end the F0*%1^& post... a blog fader is a "entrance of the blog. see the effects of THIS BLOG BEFORE YOU GOT HERE?!?! no!?!? click "back". then click the link back to my site. after you click the GODDAMNED alerts... the window sorta fades. it blurs. THATS my fader. still dont get it. YM ME.

i feel down. like the heel of a 500 pound. man is crushing my cheek on the rain sodden ground...
gdnyt every1...

-ian-

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best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of my emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.

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