Saturday, February 05, 2005

10:49 PM

No hope. Just dreams, tainted black. Haha! :D

wala.. just posting.. I wrote this while in the leadership seminar... kc ako ang Internal Vice president ng Org namin! ;p Neway.. I wrote this from 12am-2:30 am nung hindi ako makatulog. It just poured out. hehe..

Dont wori... I'll add the tagboard.. give me time...

ABOUT the "seminar".. Nagkaroon kami ng 'amazing race'.. kakapagod, dapat "Race" nalang, walang "AMAZING!" LoL.. The food was OK... but bcos of a Starbux Marshmallow(MmmMmmMmm! hehehe...) Espresso.. di tlga ako maka 2log... tapos may lumalabas sa isip ko.. lagi kong nakikita. haha. Not a chance.

-not a chance..-

This is but a poem,
to express how I feel,
'cause this is the only topic,
that I can write with zeal...

Im not very good
that much I can tell you,
especially when Im not in the mood
or when Im feelin' blue.

a special something,
I have to discuss with you,
that 'something' I really have to talk about,
and to explain it through and through...

Im quite fond of you,
that indeed is true,
yet matters have come at hand,
and this Ive got to tell you...

Im content to be your friend,
again something I could say.
couldn't mention that 'I love you'..
not knowing what game I'd play...

You belong to someone else,
someone special,
someone good...

You like him a lot, I could tell,
wouldn't want to go in between,
ruin it all,
I'd rather go to hell.

If I really cared,
I'd let you go.
'cause if you don't really love me,
let it be so..

Its my turn to let live, let go,
I've got to set you free...
I can live with that,
knowing that your happy.

You were never mine to begin with,
I'll be just your friend.
In that state I'd be content...
Being close to you feels heaven sent...

Go on! Enjoy life,
love while it could last..
Im just by the sidelines,
just thinkin' 'bout the nonexistent past...

Move forward, don't hesitate,
Dont be like me... I decided 8 years too late...
bite me, Im just too shy..
I'll just be here living life; a lie...

To love you; thats beyond,
wouldn't want to break our bond...
Friendship! Thats for me...
I guess Im so blinded, Ive got to see

Now I've said most of what I've wanted to,
but dont forget this one thing,
my wasted heart will love you
'till the day I'd be dying...

I resign to my fate,
as around me shadows dance,
as three words come to my mind;
"not a chance, not a chance.."

wala akong magawa.................................................................ows?.............................................................
haha... labo..............................................................................................................................

peaceout.;p

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the shademaster

that's me. torpe to the max!:p
ian.15.shy-quiet atenean sophomore.
torpe DAW.:))
god. ibanez guitars. dragons.
cellphones. gimmik. GIGS.
writing stories and poems.
jamming. music. YM.
eastwood. books. stealth..
weights. bikes. anime.
ethnic stuffz. aikido:p

How well do you know me?:p

jammin' it up...

INTERNATIONAL...[ata.:p]

Incubus. Coldplay.
Hoobastank. Maroon5.
Linkin Park. The Calling.
Blink 182. Green Day.
3 Doors down. Puddle of Mudd.
Switchfoot. Weezer.
U2. Matchbox20. Yellow card.


LoKaLe'..:)

Rivermaya. Spongecola.
Mojofly. Sugarfree.
M.Y.M.P. Bamboo.
Moonstar88. Eraserheads.
Sandwich. Mayonnaise.
Kjwan. Parokya ni Edgar.
Session Road. 6cyclemind. Hale.

Chalklit. Gorgeous Garbage.:D

...or else

espada. jay hirit ka patay ka saken.:p
no bashing.
no hating.

no calling me bookish.
no insulting or racism.

no jokes.kidding!

no plaigarizing or i might kill you.
ask permission first before
taking anything from MY blog.
joking!!! muhahahaha!
no really. dont. :p

leave a msg at the tagboard. joke!:p

shadowy wishes

rawr. ang tapang ko dito. papuntang eastwood.:p
canon IXUS 400 digital camera
20G i-Pod
more junk food in my room.
another ibanez electric guitar
a girlfriend.hell no!... la'ng pag-asa!
a 3rd phone.
unlimited load.
MORE friends.
japanese buffet! again.
an inspiration... right.

shadow contact

[[angeltaintedblack]] friendster/YM/e-mail/:
ian_under15@yahoo.com

[add me up ayt?!]

shadowy figures

i'm bored here.:p conceited amp.:))
aoi-chan;master of shadows
anne;luv k0 2! my BesTy.Ü
akiko;jap girl.:D
angel;alive-enix.:p
erika;rainbow-seeker
rica;thoughts nya.:p
isay;is back
ann/gian;gee-ann
gio;giotistic
b-boys;pugad B
saab;incugurl
stab23x;devil's spawn
gerlynn;sunshine and jellybeans
ktine;to infinity and beyond
cessa;little miss sadist
3cia;she is what she is
dale;nostaliaa
nique;out of the ordinary psycho
shang;she who writes
bianca;the funky wild thing
rainne;always the crazy her.:p
mich;the asteeg
maverick;she bites. :p
paula;anime at heart.;)
kambz;the talking sheep goat
iggy;kapamilya ata ni julius.:p
jon;undefined jester
chizu;gakka-mo0n
aisa;dangerously kulot.:p
chel;she is emily
nica;saturnoozfreak.:p
vince;mr.soiree.joke!:p
alex[a?];may sanib
jay;within shattered walls.:D
jopoy ceasar mukhang salad.:));euro-fritz.:p
raph;cool layout addict.:D
mm;milk-chocol8.:p
camille;she rocksss...:p
carmel;fabulous
kat;nakadungaw sa buwan
cathy;sila na ba ni Ej? joke!:p
eliz;one beautiful disaster
luigi;tox-tokwafumet

want me to link you? tell me!
there's a shout box to the right... :p

shadow links

blogger
blogskins
boxtorrents
downloadanime.org
haloscans
tag-board
Funny jokes!
Search? Lookin 4 sumthin?
Attitiude attitiude..LoL
Make new friends!
Spongecola... naaaalala ko ang mga gabi..;p

creds.:p

Basic layout by aoi.:)
Largely Improved by ian.:p

And a thanks to Julius for the "no right click" thing.:p

make some sense

best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of my emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.

enjoy what i make out of maturity and childish fantasies.

wanna.bring.it.out?shout!

sorry guys. i took away the shoutbox.:p it's on my new blog.:)

ancient shadows

December 2004 ::: January 2005 ::: February 2005 ::: March 2005 ::: April 2005 ::: May 2005 ::: June 2005 ::: July 2005 ::: August 2005 :::

i have a shadowed yet innocent mind. yeah. thats me. call me the shademaster.
welcome to my realm

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