Sunday, January 30, 2005

9:35 PM

hehe.. labo.. ^,.,^

sana tamaan... joke! korni nito super.. lalang.. ginawa ko yan sa bulacan!
kulang ata sa IMAGERY... pero puede na.. :')

-secret...-

I loved at an early age,
an early time,
by my life's book,
an early page.

I was young,
grade one or two,
was a shy little boy,
to the world I was new...

It was then, an angel I saw.
a classmate,
she was perfect
nothing wrong, no flaw...

yet to her I was discrete,
my actions passive,
I bottled up my feelings,
the effort was massive.

I set those passions aside,
went on with my life,
but still, throughout the ride,
to myself i still lied...

I ignored my heart...
though 'twas a raging sea,
did not listen to what I felt,
through ignorance with it I dealt..
kept it all inside of me...

eight years since it was hidden,
it sprang to life again,
feelings that were held back tightl,
were sure to reawaken...

I am now a freshman,
my secret I'm going to say.
so I pray...
come what may,
come what may...

I was young,
grade one or two,
I once loved a person...
I still do.

Do you want to know my secret?
That angel was...
YOU...

ampanget... hehe.. (bakit ko pa pinost?!)
sana... ewan! pahabol eh no?

ang saya mag-biking sa bulacan. I wore a toit[tight! ala goldmember.. ^_^] bicycle shirt...
but my muscles... my legs anyway... hurt like H**l... woohooo... yet.. it was still an interestin' experience... we did it for 7 hours..
we went there last saturday to.. sunday..

b4 going there.. we went to duty free.. I got 2 new pairs of shuz! yeba.. I got a new cap etc.. 'cause my parents just came from Singapore! haha.. so in Duty FRee... More ferero rocher for meeee.... :D sarap tlga...
I wrote the poem above.. 7 stanzas are correct... the the others... wla... hehe..

'ztiG sa bulacan.. star gazing w/ my uncles.. haha...

Bd3p Bd3p Bd3p Bd3p... haha..
:') iyak tawa... iyak tawa... labo

un lang..

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

7:43 PM

just another freakin' piece of crap..

wala.. bored AGAIN.. bad3p... :'(

-BROKEN STRINGS-
>>>Ian

Deep into the night
rises the silent moon…
she who shines her light
on a player of quiet tunes

He sat there,
skillfully playing his strings
all the while mending
and caring for broken wings.

He sat there, in the dark, all alone
slowly strumming his guitar
mourning for the life he had known
the life which gave him a scar.

Darkness moved, to where he was,
still in place, still alone
behind the massive behemoth of stone
where Mass is held by day,
yet at night dancing shadows come
and play.

His music was perfect,
did not need the aid of voice,
so was she, whom he lost,
he didn’t have a choice.

Through his instrument
he shared his story
his grave lament
he expressed

She will never speak to him,
they’d never be friends at best…

In his music he asked,
What is love?
Is it as intimidating as a difficult task?
Or as delicate as a glass dove?

He even questioned God, creator
Lord for what was I made for?
He decided now and then,
So stupid and foolish the choice of men

Silence then reigned again,
his music was no more.

orig yan! haha.. bakit kaya laging bad ending poems ko? labo. ;p

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Wednesday, January 26, 2005

7:10 PM

just a poem..

Fade away.. yan ung title.. pero binaboy ko yan sa english class..
here it goes!

-FADE AWAY-

Sometimes its not worth it
to know that your there
sometimes you have to dig deeper
to feel how much you care

sometimes its not worth it
to recieve a sign from you
sometimes you have to realize
that it's not easy to go through

sometimes its not worth it
to see your pictures everyday
sometimes you have to understand
your not there anyway.

sometimes its not worth it
to remember how it all began
sometimes it's not easy,
to accept that your gone.


haha.. panget no? un lang.. ;p

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6:37 PM

Still an angel tainted black... ^,..,^ grr.. hehe..

ewan ko lang ba... tagal ko nang hindi nag-p-post!
tinatamad kasi! :p joke! di naman.. wala lang na oras.. hirap kasi ng peste kong buhay eh.

nung kris-mas(X-mas malamang) i got a lot of stuff... masaya lang talaga ako nang nalaman kong i had enough money to upgrade and customize m computer!! haha.. now it looks good. damn good. ill describe it to you.. in bulletin form... NAKAKATAMAD pag gagawin pang paragraph! ^_~

>Black CPU casing...
>See through side panel w/ spiderman(face/mask wtver!) design.
>red/blue/green light inside
>blue liner neon light.
>white sony flatscreen
>dual speaker
>large(?) bass speaker
>side lamp(bonus!!! hehe)
>black keyboard, mouse and pad.. at marami pang iba.. 'ztiG no? pride and joy ko yan!!!

im ALSO going to buy anElectric guitar!!!! B-day ko sa feb.. so im going to buy it using MY lifetime savings.. haha.. it has a long name so i dont really remember it... must have been bout 3 words... leather case.. etc. the works.. though i SUCK in guitar... T_T i can only play 1 classical piece!!!! i can learn 'cause i know more than some people in plucking, arpegio, and classical...

oonga pla! i went to eXurge... (eks-sur-jey) haha.. 'ztiG c nina, acafellas, nyoy volante, jimmy bondoc, paulo santos, aaaaatttt.... rivermaya!!! haha.. ang saya. tumatalon kaming lahat na ten audience.. nakakuha pa ako ng autograph... autographed poster. pero bibigay ko yan sa best friend kong c anne.. (www.thesocialanimal.blogspot.com) bait ko! KAPAL KO NO?! ^_^

im going to be posting some pics so watch out! hehe joke lang. nothing good.. but.. good enough i guess.. di ako guapo.. more like, wierd. haha.. ganun! baguhan lang kasi ako sa "blogging" eh.. well.. not really "baguhan", but i haven't known much. :D

http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/ is an interesting test.. it determines what age do YOU act? haha... kita mo. i act like 18 raw! T_T pinatanda ako p*ch*! at least at that age i can drive already.. but i can drive kahit ngaun! haha. labo.. >_<

another interesting site is... http://www.murphys-laws.com haha... kakatawa! but still.. you have to admit it gives a real truth about life.. haha..lalu na ung love stuff.. hehe..

{for comments suggestions and violent reactions im at YM on ian_under15}
labo, violent reactions! LoL.. :p ewan...

bd3p tlga ako.. ewan ko kung bakit. feeling mo parang gus2 mong umiyak dahil sa buhay mo pero gus2 mo ring tumawa kc ang laki ng irony. haha... p*ch* ewan! bahala na...

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the shademaster

that's me. torpe to the max!:p
ian.15.shy-quiet atenean sophomore.
torpe DAW.:))
god. ibanez guitars. dragons.
cellphones. gimmik. GIGS.
writing stories and poems.
jamming. music. YM.
eastwood. books. stealth..
weights. bikes. anime.
ethnic stuffz. aikido:p

How well do you know me?:p

jammin' it up...

INTERNATIONAL...[ata.:p]

Incubus. Coldplay.
Hoobastank. Maroon5.
Linkin Park. The Calling.
Blink 182. Green Day.
3 Doors down. Puddle of Mudd.
Switchfoot. Weezer.
U2. Matchbox20. Yellow card.


LoKaLe'..:)

Rivermaya. Spongecola.
Mojofly. Sugarfree.
M.Y.M.P. Bamboo.
Moonstar88. Eraserheads.
Sandwich. Mayonnaise.
Kjwan. Parokya ni Edgar.
Session Road. 6cyclemind. Hale.

Chalklit. Gorgeous Garbage.:D

...or else

espada. jay hirit ka patay ka saken.:p
no bashing.
no hating.

no calling me bookish.
no insulting or racism.

no jokes.kidding!

no plaigarizing or i might kill you.
ask permission first before
taking anything from MY blog.
joking!!! muhahahaha!
no really. dont. :p

leave a msg at the tagboard. joke!:p

shadowy wishes

rawr. ang tapang ko dito. papuntang eastwood.:p
canon IXUS 400 digital camera
20G i-Pod
more junk food in my room.
another ibanez electric guitar
a girlfriend.hell no!... la'ng pag-asa!
a 3rd phone.
unlimited load.
MORE friends.
japanese buffet! again.
an inspiration... right.

shadow contact

[[angeltaintedblack]] friendster/YM/e-mail/:
ian_under15@yahoo.com

[add me up ayt?!]

shadowy figures

i'm bored here.:p conceited amp.:))
aoi-chan;master of shadows
anne;luv k0 2! my BesTy.Ü
akiko;jap girl.:D
angel;alive-enix.:p
erika;rainbow-seeker
rica;thoughts nya.:p
isay;is back
ann/gian;gee-ann
gio;giotistic
b-boys;pugad B
saab;incugurl
stab23x;devil's spawn
gerlynn;sunshine and jellybeans
ktine;to infinity and beyond
cessa;little miss sadist
3cia;she is what she is
dale;nostaliaa
nique;out of the ordinary psycho
shang;she who writes
bianca;the funky wild thing
rainne;always the crazy her.:p
mich;the asteeg
maverick;she bites. :p
paula;anime at heart.;)
kambz;the talking sheep goat
iggy;kapamilya ata ni julius.:p
jon;undefined jester
chizu;gakka-mo0n
aisa;dangerously kulot.:p
chel;she is emily
nica;saturnoozfreak.:p
vince;mr.soiree.joke!:p
alex[a?];may sanib
jay;within shattered walls.:D
jopoy ceasar mukhang salad.:));euro-fritz.:p
raph;cool layout addict.:D
mm;milk-chocol8.:p
camille;she rocksss...:p
carmel;fabulous
kat;nakadungaw sa buwan
cathy;sila na ba ni Ej? joke!:p
eliz;one beautiful disaster
luigi;tox-tokwafumet

want me to link you? tell me!
there's a shout box to the right... :p

shadow links

blogger
blogskins
boxtorrents
downloadanime.org
haloscans
tag-board
Funny jokes!
Search? Lookin 4 sumthin?
Attitiude attitiude..LoL
Make new friends!
Spongecola... naaaalala ko ang mga gabi..;p

creds.:p

Basic layout by aoi.:)
Largely Improved by ian.:p

And a thanks to Julius for the "no right click" thing.:p

make some sense

best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of my emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.

enjoy what i make out of maturity and childish fantasies.

wanna.bring.it.out?shout!

sorry guys. i took away the shoutbox.:p it's on my new blog.:)

ancient shadows

December 2004 ::: January 2005 ::: February 2005 ::: March 2005 ::: April 2005 ::: May 2005 ::: June 2005 ::: July 2005 ::: August 2005 :::

i have a shadowed yet innocent mind. yeah. thats me. call me the shademaster.
welcome to my realm

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